Three and a half years ago, I walked away from my life and started a new one. I knew that I wanted to be a writer, Brandon wanted to be a real estate investor, and we were going to live in Port Angeles, WA. I knew I needed a break. I was tired from the first half of my life, from being a working mom, feeling stretched thin, and a general sense of dissatisfaction.
I wanted to spend more time with my kids, be a good mom, reconnect with my husband, and invest my energy into my highest priorities. I thought we would make friends quickly, be successful at our new careers, and transition smoothly into our new life, finally free to spend our time the way we wanted. If I knew what we were getting into, I probably wouldn’t have done it. And yet, I felt so deeply dissatisfied with my life I knew I had to do something.
Now that we’re coming out on the other side, I know that we will reap the rewards of our hard work and contemplation for years to come, probably decades. To say we changed would be an understatement. I would call it more of a transformation, a metamorphosis. I think the journey we’ve been on is most similar to the dragonfly. Dragonflies have a very long larval phase and it’s aquatic.
Metaphorically speaking, a long hibernation must take place for transformation to happen at the level of the unconscious mind. But when the change is complete, the newly emerged dragonfly has translucent wings that can spread messages of wisdom that come from the depths of the soul.
The journey (hibernation) was long, it was hard, it was painful, it was dark and lonely. It involved lots of starts and stops, failures, set-backs, and coming to the same deep, painful, subconscious fears and traumas over and over again.
This blog is my attempt to emerge, reconnect, and share my experiences and, hopefully, wisdom. If the pain and challenge of the last three and a half years can provide any level of comfort, hope, beauty, insight or inspiration to others, the journey will have been worth it.
I know we are all going through a lot right now. The world appears in utter chaos. I believe we are all one, on some level - one humanity - even as we are individual expressions of it. And I think now, more than ever, we need to come together and share our humanity, recognize our oneness and find more beauty, more joy, more acceptance, more light, and more connection.
You are receiving this because we have been part of each other’s journey in some way. Maybe we’ve been close, or maybe we only crossed paths for a bit but there was a sense of connection. We’ve probably shared experiences and laughter and most likely some tears. Thank you for being a part of my life! Although I often wonder why life has to be so hard, I also wonder how I got so lucky as to be here on this stunning planet at this fascinating time in history. This blog is a way for me to give voice to all the thoughts in my head and the songs in my heart. If it doesn’t resonate with you, that’s totally fine. If it does, please feel free to sign-up to receive updates when I publish and please feel free to share with others who might enjoy it.
All my best,